Category: Blog
-
Why does everything have to do with money?
For example, i’m riding in a car trying to enjoy my surroundings. Every single billboard I pass has to do with selling you something or buying something. For example: We dismiss overthinking about it because just hearing what’s going on sounds normal as hell. But think about it a little more: EVERYTHING has to do…
-
-
-
Can you imagine what they’d do at parties?
So I was watching Project X for the 10th time and it was almost as good as the first time. But I can’t help thinking: what would people do at parties without Alcohol, Marijuana, or Nicotine? I was thinking that during the kitchen scene when they were preaching Thomas’ good party and his birthday, then…
-
-
Blog Post Update 4/8/25
by Maxim Babadzhan Just a small update for my blog. I have recently been on a dopamine detox. I have noticed that while I do have a lot of energy, that is only a good thing when I am doing something. Otherwise, when I am idle, like in bed or something, that the increased energy…
-
How does Ryan Gosling do it? Lol.
I’m watching Drive (2011) with Ryan Gosling and Carrey Mulligan. In every scene Ryan Gosling is either silent and still or looking at somebody, smiling, or just with a blank face staring at them. How do they do it? I struggle so much with being in public and trying not to stare at people. I…
-
11/30/24 — I miss weed.
11/30/2024 4:51 AM These days are rough. I just miss when I was 15 through 20. I remember going to my friend Tommy’s house and we’d get cigarettes and smoke them in the woods. I didn’t know how to inhale then though, so it was really just only for fun lol. And then I remember…
-
11/19/24 – “Maintenance, progression, pain, and exploration.”
Things have been O.K. I still do not have a girlfriend or much of a social life. I have been taking a break from league of legends, which was, weirdly, a big part of my social life. Winning in that game gave me a huge ego boost and made me actually feel like somebody, because…
-
10/8/24 — Headaches and Psychosis Part 2
You know what else completely baffled me? I went into writing today’s blog posts purely to rant on how so many people literally do not give a shit about me at all. Seriously. I’ve gone through months and months of chronic pain and even feeling like I can’t breathe so many times because of my…